晨晨的窝n_n~

我承认自己方向感很差

所以我不想学车

即使妈妈一个劲的怂恿我

可是爸爸总会担心的说

既不认识路

反映又比别人慢半拍 

还是坐车舒服......

 

我在想为什么我在杭州生活了20个年头

连西湖边上的湖滨路也没概念

 

可能是从小喜欢在家里呆着

当妈妈所谓的"楼台小姐"

不喜欢出门

 

我生活的周围无处没有眼睛
你向世界交流的媒介
都成了他的眼睛。。。。

他看你 而你看不见他
等到东窗事发
你才明白自己的暴露 是多么赤裸~

当个人对抗国家时
不~！
应该是国家机器时
是多么渺小

最近明白了点什么
原来
我很欣赏有思想的人
觉得自己读书匮乏
见识浅薄
在那些有思想的人面前
很惭愧

其实我错了
思想的产生
不是知识
而是体验
不是书本
而是生活

如果一个有思想的人
他的思想
不是通过自己
内在的血液过滤得来的
那么这个思想只能是
窃取别人的思想
或者是别人思想的
共鸣。。。。

 

我最近体验到
依赖这个词的分量

其实女人之所以
被世代人当做柔弱的代名词
是因为她依赖了
一个男人
有了依赖
她变了

而男人之所以要负责
或者说要强悍

今天天气很滋润
滋润到觉得自己很美
哈 臭屁了

又开始尝试
尝试喝酸奶
咳。。。。。
对我这个恐奶的人来说
真是个挑战

开始发现自己变小了
在妈妈面前撒娇
但结果发现
妈妈比我更小了
可怜的老爸啊
养了两个女儿

今天突然想写点什么

可能是最近空虚了~

想起门徒里的一句台词:

到底是毒品可怕,还是空虚可怕

我现在发现空虚很可怕......

原来每个人都要经历自我挣扎

只是挣扎的内容不一样

看到昆德拉<玩笑的爱>中一句话

人生的意义恰恰在于游戏人生

 假如人生过于懒惰地对待这一切

就比寻再给它一个小小的动力

是啊  给自己个挑战

但找到这个挑战也是个挑战

 

 生病 疲惫 思念 没有目标

是不是可以成为堕落的理由

我不时肯定它 

但又急切的否定它

 

最近尝试了 网购+献血

it is boring.....at home,so i went to ZJ library.

the way approaching to ZJ library is definitely familiar to me. yeah~~~~the avenue has recorded my trifles when i went to school and return to home at the age of 11,12.... maybe this memory includes my feelings,my tears and my love.....

my heart is like the study room which is more cooling and empty than usual, mybe someting is missing long long ago.

Let me be your hero

Would you dance,
if I asked you to dance?
Would you run,
and never look back?
Would you cry,
if you saw me crying?
And would you save my soul, tonight?

Would you tremble,
if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?
Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die,
for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Would you swear,
that you'll always be mine?
Or would you lie?
would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Oh, I just wanna to hold you.
I just wanna to hold you.
Oh yeah.
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I don't care...
You're here, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you, forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.

HOHO~my alarm clock is striking at 7, but when i am determined to get up, it is 8:00. i enjoy myself in the quilt warmly and sweatly about an hour.....  T_T!

the idea of going to zhengjiang university for a visit occured to my mind yesterday all of a sudden. today when i get up, i realize that taking it practice is not easy as i expected.... HOHO because of the fierce gale and chill temperature.

it is not my first time to visit ZJ university, but i still acknowledge that it is a grand&magnificent university. i spent 25 minutes going to my destination...*_*

the classroom i studied in did not open air conditioner.5555555...after an hour, a sense of chill spread my hands&my feed.the more time you spent in still sitting, the chiller you will feel. Oh~! My God~

HOHO~it's time for lunch.
Oh~no..... the dining hall is crowded with people..
only one fact i just know: the enrollment of people in ZJ university is block-booked.

after lunch, i studied in western region in the campus.i found myself like a guerrila fighter, why? because the classroom i found available always would be used after 30 minutes, therefor i needed to move to a new classroom....

the happiest thing today is meeting ADA.
n_n~ she changed noting including her smile&her gesture

the rose

some say love
it is a river
that drowns tender reed
some say love
it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed
some say love
it is a hunger,
that endless aching need
i say love
it is a flower
and you it's only seed

it's the heart afriad of breaking
that never learns to dance
it's the dream afriad of waking
that never takes the chance
it's the one who won't be taken
who can not seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying
that never learns to live

when the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think
that love is not only for the lucky and the strong
just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snow
lies the seed
that with the sun's love
in the spring becomes the rose

desinty is a word , like "love"......always saying:" what i am here to do."

                                                                                                    -----the matrix

yes...... every programme created must have its purpose, if does not, it is deleted

i am free recently, after final examination.

nothing is important, hoho~ i lost myself.......

when the most bearing burdens are pressuring on us, let us submit to it, and force us to the ground. therefor the most bearing burden is as well as the most energetic reflection of the life.the more bearing, the closer distance our lives connect to the ground, so the more true they exist.

i get to tast the feel & situation that i used to complain to myself :busy!

busy like a spring, maybe, if you get better of it, contorl of it, you will be the master of your live which is filled with colorful and magnificent memory.

now i expect something happen.....

someting i can find myself, return to the goal not the dream.......